I want a turn!

So today in fast and testimony meeting. I was just listening and trying to entertain the kids when Jaxon starts paying attention to the speaker. Ok, no big deal, that is great I think. When the guy finishes he says; "Mom, I want a turn!" And I said, "To bear your testimony?" Yeah! What am I supposed to do? I know that they have said you shouldn't take your kids up there. They have to be old enough to go by themselves and say their testimonies all alone. I keep trying to think of ways to postpone this. He isn 't old enough to do this yet, is he? I've never seen a three year old get up and do this. Finally two more people go and he says is it my turn next. I tell him that it is for older people. Then I start to get this feeling that I should just get up and he can watch. No that won't do, he wants to and he is starting to throw a fit. You can't have a fight over bearing your testimony, is that sacreligious? Then this like 7yr. old gets up and does so good, talks about the scriptures, his family, the prophet. And Jax says, but he is little and he did it. I want a turn! So I keep asking him what are you going to say when you get up there and he says, "I want to bear a testimony, i like scriptures, i love my family, Amen. So we walk up to the first row and I am trying to coach him so he says it the same. I know mom, let me go first. So I mouthed to Bro. Brinkerhoff and asked if he could and he said yes. I say, its your turn! He goes up to the microphone and he started to talk but the stand wasn't lowering fast enough so all you heard was Amen. He said, " I want to bear my testimony. Name of Jesus Christ Amen!" He skipped the middle but was so excited. I bore my testimony afterwards. It is just amazing that a three year old would want to do that! I guess it was Heavenly Father's way of getting me to "have a turn" when I haven't for three years gotten up. The Lord knew that I needed to do that and I have already felt the blessings of getting up. That is why the Lord, tells us to be as little children. In Relief Society I was thinking about all of this and realized that for the past three years I have felt spiritually lost, it doesn't help having two kids in those 3 yrs. and not really paying much attention to any sort of lesson or meeting due to entertaining. I have felt to spiritually lost, even when I am reading my scriptures and praying. And today was the first day in so long that I felt the spirit prompting me as a mother and as a person. I think that testimony meeting is so important, bearing your testimony brings blessings that nothing else can, and it opens your heart to the spirit. I am so thankful for my little prompting angel Jaxon today. He has opened my eyes and given me the spiritual strength I have been needing!